So fucking apt.

Why act like I have friends when all I do have is company? Hold on a second, do I even have company? Why do I even act like I don't bother? No, nobody likes to sit alone at the back of the class. But I see no point in sitting with other people when it feels like I'm not. Just to look a little less pathetic.

Now as you recall looking at this Zi Lei sitting alone at the back of the class looking all cool and... #foreveralone. Not funny.

And so I wonder.

是逞强或坚强？

逞强。
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Maybe one reason I go chasing idols is because I can take my mind off matters like this. For that moment when I scream and shout all I think of is them. I don't even feel as invisible in front of my 偶像s as being around my so-called company actually.

Anyway my friend took a really nice picture of 插班生 last Sunday and I just edited it and made it into my wallpaper. I think it looks good man.

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Invisible. But INVINCIBLE!!!! *flex non-existent arm muscles*