This. Is. Torturous.

Absolutely.

The moment I switch on my computer, I have the urge to Google about DSLRs. And the more I read, the more I want to get one. Damn.

I've set a goal for myself, to get top 3 overall, then ask my mum (for the sake of asking) if I could buy one either with my own money or if she wants to pay for half or something, I wouldn't mind. I guess it's time to get myself something bigger other than the usual happy food like corn cup and oreo. But the thing is, I SHOULD BE SPENDING TIME WORKING HARD TO GET TOP 3. Instead of reading up about DSLRs, which should come after achieving my goal.

Oh dammit this is so torturous for me. I've been reading up a lot since the start of the year or somewhere there, but it wasn't as intense as these few days of weekends + national day holidays. Been thinking about whether to get a D5100 or a 600D. (Google totally doesn't help here.) And then I started to read up on lenses too. (After knowing all the ISO and shutter speed and stuff like that.) Still don't quite get how lenses are priced (some of them are so damn expensive), but have roughly decided on the focal length of the ones I'm probably gonna get. YES AND IT'S TORTUROUS when you know quite a lot about the camera BUT YOU CAN'T GET IT. Yet.

Trying to achieve the 望梅止渴 effect but failed because I'm now as thirsty as ever after stimulating my tastebuds.

Constantly counting down to when the results for EOYs come out. Oh and actually even if I don't get top 3, I'm still going to ask my mum. Maybe I'll just feel disappointed with myself but that's it. The desire to get a DSLR was merely a motivation for me to procrastinate less.

On a not-very-to-the-side side note, I dislike people who can get a DSLR so damn easily and yet doesn't make a good use of it. Like using it to camwhore in the toilet and take pictures of themselves with the toilet bowls as the background. Good thing DSLRs aren't very convenient to take self-shots because of it's weight and placement of the shutter.

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WAIT FOR ME.
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Oh and this song, is really really nice.