idolising

something I don't know if I could continue doing for a long time......

how many people have sworn to love their idols forever, but have forgotten them in just a few years, or even months?

I shall be realistic.

my mum has told me not just once, that she also used to have idols, but now... not anymore. and said mine won't last too. I said, it'd last for a long time. definitely.

I am certain my idols will never do things that would make me dislike them. (like things that are not morally right.) so the problem lies with me.

as of now, I love them a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot and yea you get the idea.

but what if that feeling fades? just like how my love for certain things did too?

I hope it doesn't. (it happened to be 11:11 a minute ago.)

they are definitely talented and lovable people. the thing is just whether my feeling fades. when I don't feel excited anymore. when I don't get starstruck anymore. when I get used to seeing them.

the distance between idols and fans... exactly how close should it be such that fans are connected, and how far should it be such that fans don't get too used to their presence?

these questions have been troubling me for quite sometime, when I asked myself if I'd still love chabansheng as much after a year, while writing the letter to myself at the gathering.

I hope one day if I stop loving them as much, this blog entry would remind me of the very reasons I love Rui En and ChaBanSheng now.

那個...

最初的感動。