sun and the air-con

as meiyu says, my blog is always about how people look and me, how I look at people, and how people look at other people. and I have no choice but to agree because it's a fact.

yes. I care about how others look at me. but lesser of how others say of me though.

which is why I constantly remind myself how not to look at other people.

I'm learning. learning to be a better person. learning not to hurt.

Open your eyes

just wanted to do a blog entry because of things that have been circling my mind. it's been a busy week and to be honest I just gave up doing homework today simply because I didn't want to. and I'm pretty aware of the fact that I didn't start the sentences with a capital letter because it doesn't turn on automatically and I'm lazy. and YES I do know that I shouldn't be so naggy on my own blog and especially when I'm supposed to sleep and not blogging with my phone.

just wanted to remind myself and you guys to open our eyes all the time and see, not just see what we are seeing but seeing what others are seeing and probably how people are seeing ourselves too. or in other words, not be self-centred and see things from different perspectives.

I admit that sometimes I think I'm better than others in this or that way. or at least that's what I think so. but sometimes it's not just how we see ourselves. what if the whole world thinks you're not? so are you...... or are you not?

sometimes I see a person and I say to myself, nah that person's worse than me (in a certain thing). but when the everyone else thinks that that person is better, is it the opinions of the bystanders that are the fact, or is my opinion the truth?

sometimes we get so blinded that we forget how others can actually be better than us. we forget that we are not the best. we forget that perhaps the majority always wins. we forget how the truth is not just defined by us, but also by the million other people.

I hope to open my eyes after I wake up from my sleep...

Euphoria 2011

Four days of the secondary one orientation (also known as Euphoria 2011) as an OGA for the second year. And also the last year because I can't be an OGA when I'm in secondary four. Which is kind of sad because I will miss cheering and screaming with the adorable sec ones.

But one thing I've always regretted as an OGA is that my peer classes have never won anything during the campfire night. Be it 1/1'10 or 1/3'11. And I sometimes blame myself for that because I don't know how to dance and I'm definitely not good at coming up with creative performance ideas. Almost all the classes this year had an OGA/OGL who knew how to dance. Like Afiq, Yijin and Qinglin who isn't even an OGA. The rest of the classes who didn't have had someone who knew how to dance in their classes. (Even though it's ALL K-Pop.)

And talking about K-Pop, I was totally bombarded by Korean songs yesterday. There was Sorry Sorry and Gee and Hoot and Run Devil Run and another one which I didn't know.

I'm starting to run out of things to write for this blog entry actually........... Oh yea Ivan and Pu Qian just acknowledged me as ah mah yesterday for no apparent reason. First thing that came into my mind is 'I got so chao lao (look very old) meh?!' Okay I think the answer is yes. *insert expressionless face* One of the sec ones also asked if I was in secondary four. And then I asked her if I looked that old, and she said I looked about the same as Kelly (who is in secondary four).

I think I need to 认老 already.

Yea and my two grandsons (Note: grandSONS) kept doing the 'Ah mah~~~ 我要吃糖糖~~~~' in a very-very-very-to-the-power-of-infinity disgusting 撒娇-ing way. (晕) Those that you shake your body (okay I really don't know how to describe this). But I like!!! Entertainment value super high because I never fail to burst out in laughters!

Ignore my ugly hair and my shortness..........

Serangoon Swing 2011 with RBKD

Hello everybody!!! The first day of the year will be over in about 5 minutes and I really hope to finish this entry by today. Okay so I'm typing really fast now without actually bothering too much about my grammar and lack of vocabulary.

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Serangoon Swing 2011

So yea, I went to buy lightsticks at somewhere near my house and then headed to nex to meet Elaine. And then I helped Joyce buy Candice's present and helped Candice buy our presents. And because of Candice's hallucination that there is actually a Gong Cha in nex, we went around finding it and ended up asking the customer service, and apparently there isn't any Gong Cha shop there.

Then headed to Serangoon Gardens Circus to meet up with the awesome Winx Club + other RBKD people (OH NO IT'S 12AM. :() and proceeded to our Christmas gift exchange, which was eventually not such a good idea because we had to lug our presents home in the early early morning. And I got a Doraemon cushion from Elaine, a Doraemon from Rachael and a panda towel from Joyce when I only gave them my very-sincere-gifts-made-from-very-cheap-fuse-beads. Hmm then we just hanged around Chomp Chomp while waiting for the road closure so we could queue in front of the stage. I think this entry is starting to get boring so I should just skip to Rui En's performance.

She sang 空瓶 and 白色羽毛 and obviously you and I know that she's awesome. I've really really ran out of words to describe her and her performances. She just really pretty and cute all the time la. It's really nice to see Elvin and her on the stage and chatting. (I support Ruivin.) Hehe.

I guess the more important part of the countdown was the RBKD spirit. To be honest, we only got to see Rui En on stage for perhaps 10 minutes. But we got to be with RBKD for the entire day (especially those who went at 8am) or night. We got to queue with RBKD, we got to eat with RBKD, we got to scream and shout with RBKD, we got to do so much things that we don't get to do with Rui En. It is about spending so much more time with RBKD than watching Rui En's performance yet feeling that it was definitely worth it.

Okay back to the countdown. I really love the RBKD Train despite doing really embarrassing things like holding the RE board the wrong way. But it was fun how we didn't care about what others would think of us, be it being crazy, or even people on CWO.

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The way home

It was horrible. My mum already started nagging on the phone when we reached the bus stop at 1.30am. There is actually many buses I could take to go home if not for the late timing. The only bus service still available was 315 and it goes to Serangoon MRT. So quite a number of us went took the bus and went to Wendy's at nex to have a drink. By the time I left with Kahyin it was almost 2am. (more nagging here.) And fortunately (uh, not really) the train service was extended so I took the train to Bishan, only to discover that there was no more train to Toa Payoh. So I went to ask the officer at the MRT if there are still bus services going on. He said only NR1 which has an interval of about 20 minutes. (more nagging + me convincing that I won't get kidnapped or something) So I waited for at least 40 minutes and that bus didn't even come. In the end my mum just decided that she would walk towards the Bishan MRT with my cousin (she was somewhere at Bishan sending her friend off) while I would also walk towards my house, so we would meet halfway.

And this is the scariest part. I was actually pretty scared so I started singing 疼憨人 while walking alone and held my keys in my hand as a form of self-defense. And I walked past a Chinese guy, and walking behind him was a Malay/Indian man whose face just wrote 'DANGER'. He stared at me as he walked past. I was afraid that he might think I was scolding him in Chinese. And just as I turned back to check if he was just continuing to walk, I caught him looking at me (in a totally scary way that just said 'GET AWAY FROM HIM'). I quickened my pace and stopped at the traffic light. Everytime I looked back again, I could see his silhouette standing/leaning against a wall and he wasn't walking. It was as though he was looking at me (there wasn't actually anyone around that area at that time). I was sooooooooooooo afraid that he would suddenly run after me. I was only a little relaxed when I knew he was a safe distance from me and he wasn't following me. And so met my mum and cousin near a bus stop and went home. Reached home at what, 3.30AM?!

Yup so that's about it. And I swear that scene with the guy's silhouette still haunts me a little. *sigh*

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Embarrassing moments

1. I thought Jeanette Aw was going to sing Jay Chou's 安静 when I heard the first line, when it fact it was S.H.E's 安静了. But that's not the most embarrassing part. I said very loudly to Rachael, "And it's like 安静 not 安静了 (JA said she was gonna sing 安静了) + *rolls eye at JA*.

That. Was. VERY. Embarrassing. 自以为很厉害+自作聪明=Embarrassment.

2. I was holding the board the wrong way (it faced behind instead of in front) during a part of the RBKD train. And I didn't realise it until I saw the video.

That. Was. Embarrassing.

3. I look hideous in the RBKD group photo we took on the road. I was trying to make funny faces but ended up looking 好恐怖 instead of 好笑. (Check SMN's forum siggie.)

Hmm it's 2.46AM. 睡觉时间到了. Goodnight!